Time keep testing me myself. I am addicted to my own fantasy creation. Outside influences are so strong in between. I just need to define what it is. What is this kind of feeling. Since that I had left the confusing surrounding me.. well how do I feel right now..? I don't want to live in reality.. That is a simple statement as it is came from.. I want to dissolve and break it into a pieces.. So I'm able to get a big picture.. defining more and slightly deeper..

I don't feel like writing this feeling down.. what a tired feeling.. duh!