Hari neh Pak Usu aku datang rumah. Dia nak jemput anak dia kat kajang. Nak balik singgah sekejap kat rumah. Haha.. memang kitorang suma tak bajet Paksu nak datang. Mak ayah aku sempoi je suruh aku beli lauk kat luar. Sejak menganggur neh paham-paham jela keje aku kat umah. Akula yang kene beli. Si Asip dah menghilang.. baru je tadik ade pastu dah tadet. Nyampah betul.

Time aku sibuk siapkan portfolio ni la macam2 yang datang kan..? Sebab tu aku selesa buat keje memalam. Anyway, rumah aku meriah kejap. Anak Paksu ramai yang kecik2. Fatin ape lagi. Mak panggil dia tak dengar.. seronot sangat la tu..

Mak aku ajak Paksu tido rumah malam neh. Paksu tanak, esok ade hal. Tak dapatla aku borak2 ngan Maksu lame sikit. Dahla susah nak jumpa. Kenala tunggu raya Ngaa..~

Aku tengah carik Idea untuk portfoilio aku neh. Sampai tak larat nak pikir. Saje luangkan mase update blog. Kot2 dapat idea pun best gak.. haha. Aku nak sambung keje..

Petang neh aku gi Cheras. Rumah siKecik. Membetulkan apa yang patut. Sebab Laptop dia slow sangat. Rupa-rupanya.. RAM kesik sangat.. 240MB jer. Lepak2 kat situ sampaila maghrib. Mak Kecik belanja makan kerang bakar. First time aku rase kerang bakar. Sedap. Terima kaseh Makcik. Semoga dimurahkan rezeki.

Malam neh.. aku ketiduran lambat. Aku nak update portfolio aku. Huhuhu.. banyak nye nak buat.. Nampak gaya setiap malam aku kene tido lambat.. ngaa~

Putrajaya

Aku memang agak keletihan hari neh. Sampai tertido, walaupun dah janji ngan El dan Nona nak kuar main bowling malam tadi. Dari pagi aku dah start settle kan urusan kehilangan Sijil SPM aku. Pagi tadi jam 9 dah keluar rumah, aku kutip hutang kat Cheras.. dah sengkek neh. Tanpa disangka, cek gaji aku pun dah kuar. Then, tengahari aku pegi pejabat Polis Serdang buat report kehilangan. En. Polis yang bernama Alias tu sangat-sangatla comelnye.. hilang penat aku kejap.

Kemudian diikuti dengan kedai Photostat, aku kene photocopy slip spm aku dan terus ke pejabat pos Sri Kembangan. Bersesak-sesak carik parking. Last2 jauh gakla aku parking.. tak pulak aku jugak yang kene menapak.. ditambah dengan kepanasan matahari.. wah! Panas rambut aku, abehla~

Bukan setakat itu saja, aku nak Sijil tu cepat. Maka dengan itu aku gamble pegi Putrajaya. Carik bangunan kerajaan Lembaga Peperiksaan Malaysia. Yang aku tau time tuh, dekat ngan Alamanda.. bak kate Kecik (kawan Uitm yang hilang SPM jugak). Nasib baik signboard memudahkan pencarian aku.

Dah sampai masalah parking sekali lagi melanda. Last2 aku menapak lagik. Hadeh..! Letih la aku nak jalan pepanas neh. Aku bukannya putih, bertambah gelapla aku..! Muka aku dah serabai kat dalam bangunan Peperiksaan Malaysia tuh. Bak kate El macam muka orang masak goring pisang. Muka berminyak aku dah malas nak cover. Aku letih!

Siap isi boring. Aku terus challow. Dahaga toksah cakap. Letih jangan kate. Tak cukup disitu. Aku sesat mase nak kuar. Ntah memane aku pegi. Dengan tak makan tengahari, kelaparan dan bingung. Tau2 je dah sampai kat Pasar borong selangor.. ajaib sungguh Putrajaya. Tak kasik aku buat pusing U langusung. Memang jalan kat Putrajaya neh bagi aku makan angin.

Sampai kat umah. Aku melantak kejap. Aku dah letih. Tak larat nak pegi Cheras betulkan Laptop siKecik. Esok la Kecik eh. Then, aku terus tidur kekenyangan..

Aku terjaga bila El datang umah nak jemput aku gi Mines. Muahaha..~ Sorry El. Aku tertido dengan kusyuk. Then kitorang pun gi Mines makan McD, dan gi main bowling. Mulanya aku takleh focus. Rokok aku tinggal dalam keta. Game kedua barula dapat rokok. Nasib baik ade abang yang baik hati kat situ.

Lepas isap rokok dengan kelam kabut.. taula pening tangkap ke kepala. Langsung masuk longkang bola aku. Ades..

Dah stable sikit.. baru aku slowly score. Muahaha..~

Aku tanak pegi keje. Aku tak tau knape. Dah bosan sangat agaknyer. Hadei.. kenape je aku rase macam neh.. Esok aku nak kene pi keja.. malasnyer.. huah~

I Will Remember You

*I will remember you
Will you remember me?
Don't let your life pass you by
Weep not for the memories*

I'm so tired but I can't sleep
Standin' on the edge of something much too deep
It's funny how we feel so much but we cannot say a word
We are screaming inside, but we can't be heard

**
I'm so afraid to love you, but more afraid to lose
Clinging to a past that doesn't let me choose
Once there was a darkness, deep and endless night
You gave me everything you had, oh you gave me light

**
by Sarah Mclachlan

Time Is Ticking Out

Oh well.. The time keep on ticking. Finally, let's spread the news. I past my resignation letter yesterday, after a talk with her. She accept and so far I believe she understand why on earth I keep saying I want something new to do.

I had another 2 weeks to finish this. I gave her 2 weeks notice. After this I'm going back to the excitement of design. Well.. Being prepared. A good thing to know about my Boss here, she always wanted everyone to be success with her or without her. There's a lots of thing that I had learnt from her, which never been taught by anyone before. Greatest thanks.

Hurgh.. Anyway. Dalam keadaan macam ni pulak terdapat banyak pula cobaan-cobaan yang inginkan perhatian dari aku.. Maksud aku, ini bukanlah masa terbaik untuk aku memikirkan perkara-perkara yang seumpama dengan kumbang dan bunga.

I already feel excited to get back to graphic. There are a few things I need to settle down before I get start. Just let the time ticking.. ~

Here I am. Once again I did't go to work. I was slept almost 12 hours. When I wake my younger brother (Asip) suddenly give me a surprise question. 'Lambatnye bangun.. ko nak bunuh diri ke..?' I am like stunt for a second. Simply just saying.. 'Maybe..'. I'm smiling.. Kidding myself I guess. Then I am thinking what he just said. What am I thinking right now..? Killing myself is a really scary statement. Am I..? Wah..~

I am truly tired whit this situation. Figuring out how I want to end this. I'm stuck. How many times I felt like this before..? Maybe 3 times already. Huah.. Just now I take a test at QuizBox - Get to know yourself better.

Your view on yourself:
You are intelligent, honest and sweet. You are friendly to everybody and don't like conflict. Because you're so cheerful and fun people are naturally attracted to you and like to talk to you.

The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:
You like serious, smart and determined people. You don't judge a book by its cover, so good-looking people aren't necessarily your style. This makes you an attractive person in many people's eyes.

Your readiness to commit to a relationship:
You are ready to commit as soon as you meet the right person. And you believe you will pretty much know as soon as you might that person.

The seriousness of your love:
Your have very sensible tactics when approaching the opposite sex. In many ways people find your straightforwardness attractive, so you will find yourself with plenty of dates.

Your views on education
Education is very important in life. You want to study hard and learn as much as you can.

How do you view success:
You are confident that you will be successful in your chosen career and nothing will stop you from trying.

What are you most afraid of:
You are afraid of things that you cannot control. Sometimes you show your anger to cover up how you feel.

Who is your true self:
You are mature, reasonable, honest and give good advice. People ask for your comments on all sorts of different issues. Sometimes you might find yourself in a dilemma when trapped with a problem, which your heart rather than your head needs to solve.

Somehow, the last sentence really true about how I feel right now. Muahaha..~

You're a Stoic. Your stress style follows the path of many steadfast folks: Think of the Brits with their "stiff upper lips," or the Germans with their cool-as-a-cucumber reserve. It amazes those who know you, but stress hardly seems to affect you. In fact, friends might even say you're oblivious to the tension in your life.

But being in denial about stress doesn't really make it go away. Small problems may seem to take care of themselves when ignored, but major life issues need attention to be resolved in a positive way. The next time you're faced with serious stress, pull your head out of the sand and try giving the situation your full attention for a change. You might be surprised to find that your coping skills are actually quite good — even if they're a little rusty.

Telemarketing Department dan Sales diberi cuti selama 2 hari minggu neh.. tak pernah-pernah termimpi oleh kitorang suma.. hahaha.. sukanya aku.

Sebab utama kitaorang diberi cuti, Big Boss heppy ngan performance.. everyone archieve their target.. kalo yang tak archieve tu pun sipi-sipi je. Ini suma diatas kerjasama dan tungkus lumus kitorang suma.. everyone push into the limits! Aku nyer performance pun bley tahan.. tak sabar nak tau result dah ni.. Aku ngan Ervin sekarang tengah berlumba-lumba to be the Top! hua hua.. Nak diikutkan.. Ervin dah ketinggalan jauh.. memang aku tak sangka dia mampu kejar last-last minute macam neh.. hadeh.. dasat nyer plan ko yer Ervin.. you see how we challenge this month.

Semalam aku gi bershopping ngan siZara (dah naik pangkat supervisor - congrats!). Kitorang gi Lot10 makan sushi, then aku beli toiletries. SiZara plak beli kasut baru.. dah naik pangkatla katekan.. ehem.. ehem.. dah tak boleh pakai seluar jeans la yerk.. kene tunjuk contoh yang baik kat kitorang.. :p

Then, petang tu on the way balik ke umah. Tetiba aku menerima panggilan dari siQisy. Kenkawan matriks aku ajak datang umah Qisy.. memang tak jauh sangat Qisy. Tambang pegi balik memang tak mahal mane pun.. huhu. Kelana Jaya tu jauh tau..! Aku Ok jer mulanyer.. mase perjalanan ke sana aku rasa macam jauhnyer lagik.. herk.. aku tukar plan terus ke rumah siAnang. Dekat Subang jer. Takler jauuuhh sangat kan Qisy..? Hehe..

Lepak-lepak umah Anang kejap. Nasib baik dia cuti. Layan Tv kat umah dia. Tengah lepak-lepak tu aku dah rase tak sedap badan. Badan aku panas.. sakit tekak.. dan cepat letih.. dari pagi tadik aku dah rase tak sedap kat tekak. Ingat biase-biase je..hurgh..! Anang cakap ade tiga sebab.. kurang minum air masak, kuat isap rokok, dan stress.. hahaha.. memang kena dengan gaya aku minggu lepas.. tak heranla..

Hari ni aku dok umah, cirit-birit. Malas nak kuar.. kemas-kemas rumah jer.. Masak pun tidak hua hua.. Parents aku balik kampung pagi neh.. balik hari Ahad ni. Hadui.. nak jaga siFatin neh yang letih. Aku suruh makan dia tanak makan.. dia kenyang dia kata.. aku pun malas nak replace mak. Aku kakak jer. Ko tanak makan sudah. Nanti lapar bagitau.. Muahahaa...! Simple..

Aku nak kene minum banyak air hari neh.. kalo tak silap-silap hari bulan tak datang kerje.. walaupun aku dah terasa malas. Tapi esok hari Sabtu beb..! Maneleh cuti.. hadei.. malasnyer.