Here I am. Once again I did't go to work. I was slept almost 12 hours. When I wake my younger brother (Asip) suddenly give me a surprise question. 'Lambatnye bangun.. ko nak bunuh diri ke..?' I am like stunt for a second. Simply just saying.. 'Maybe..'. I'm smiling.. Kidding myself I guess. Then I am thinking what he just said. What am I thinking right now..? Killing myself is a really scary statement. Am I..? Wah..~

I am truly tired whit this situation. Figuring out how I want to end this. I'm stuck. How many times I felt like this before..? Maybe 3 times already. Huah.. Just now I take a test at QuizBox - Get to know yourself better.

Your view on yourself:
You are intelligent, honest and sweet. You are friendly to everybody and don't like conflict. Because you're so cheerful and fun people are naturally attracted to you and like to talk to you.

The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:
You like serious, smart and determined people. You don't judge a book by its cover, so good-looking people aren't necessarily your style. This makes you an attractive person in many people's eyes.

Your readiness to commit to a relationship:
You are ready to commit as soon as you meet the right person. And you believe you will pretty much know as soon as you might that person.

The seriousness of your love:
Your have very sensible tactics when approaching the opposite sex. In many ways people find your straightforwardness attractive, so you will find yourself with plenty of dates.

Your views on education
Education is very important in life. You want to study hard and learn as much as you can.

How do you view success:
You are confident that you will be successful in your chosen career and nothing will stop you from trying.

What are you most afraid of:
You are afraid of things that you cannot control. Sometimes you show your anger to cover up how you feel.

Who is your true self:
You are mature, reasonable, honest and give good advice. People ask for your comments on all sorts of different issues. Sometimes you might find yourself in a dilemma when trapped with a problem, which your heart rather than your head needs to solve.

Somehow, the last sentence really true about how I feel right now. Muahaha..~